Discouraged...
This week, I had to face some cold hard realities and I am just not sure how to feel. For years, I have noticed some problem behaviors in Jack and have mentioned them to multiple people and several of his pediatricians and everyone told me that it was "probably normal and he was just a bit more aggressive because he was a big boy". I would give anything to be able to go back and listen to my instincts and get him help 2 years ago because now I have to watch him struggle for my failings as a parent. That is a tough pill to swallow. Basically, I have cleared my schedule of anything (except weddings) and made myself 100% available to stay at school all day to help keep Jack in line. We have therapist appoinments set up for testing and people approching me every day asking me if I have had him tested. "No...not yet but it is scheduled and hopefully we will have some answers soon" has become my standard response. In the meantime, I am not sure how to discipline. Should I do what I have always done and spank him for disobeying....or should I try to remove him from class for a little while? What if he can't help what he is doing? It would be like spanking him for breathing. Have I been doing that for years now? I just don't know yet. I am so anxious that I can't sleep at night and I spend all day with what feels like a brick in the pit of my stomach as I watch him unable to control himself. I really hope that we can get some help for him and help him adjust now before it becomes even harder as he gets older. :(
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